اللَّهُمَّ بِعِلْمِكَ الْغَيْبَ وَقُدْرَتِكَ عَلَى الْخَلْقِ أَحْيِنِي مَا عَلِمْتَ الْحَيَاةَ خَيْرا ً لِي وَتَوَفَّنِي إِذَا عَلِمْتَ الْوَفَاةَ خَيْرا ً لِي، هُمَّ وَأَسْأَلُكَ خَشْيَتَكَ فِي الْغَيْبِ وَالشَّهَادَةِ ، وَأَسْأَلُكَ كَلِمَةَ الْحَقِّ فِي الرِّضَا وَالْغَضَبِ وَأَسْأَلُكَ الْقَصْدَ فِي الْفَقْرِ وَالْغِنَى ، وَأَسْأَلُكَ نَعِيما ً لَا يَنْفَدُ وَأَسْأَلُكَ قُرَّةَ عَيْن ٍ لَا تَنْقَطِعُ ، وَأَسْأَلُكَ الرِّضَاءَ بَعْدَ الْقَضَاءِ ، وَأَسْأَلُكَ بَرْدَ الْعَيْشِ بَعْدَ الْمَوْتِ ، وَأَسْأَلُكَ لَذَّةَ النَّظَرِ إِلَى وَجْهِكَ وَالشَّوْقَ إِلَى لِقَائِكَ فِي غَيْرِ ضَرَّاءَ مُضِرَّة ٍ وَلَا فِتْنَة ٍ مُضِلَّة
Allahumma bi-Ilmikal ghaiba wa qudratika ‘alal-khalqi ‘ahyini ma ‘alimtal-hayaata khairan li, wa tawaffan idza’alimtal-wafata khairan li. Allahumma as’aluka khashyataka Fī al-ghaybi wa ash-shahādati, wa as’aluka Kalimata Al-haqqi fī ar-riđā, wa al-ghađabi wa as’aluka Al-Qaşda Fī al-Faqri wa al-ghiná, Wa as’aluka na`īmāan Lā Yanfadu Wa ‘As’aluka Qurrata `Aynin Lā Tanqaţi`u, wa as’aluka Ar-Riđā’a Ba`da Al-Qađā’i, wa as’aluka Barda al-ayshi Ba`da Al-Mawti, Wa as’aluka ladhdhata An-Nažari ‘Ilá Wajhika wa ash-shawqa Ilá Liqā’ika Fī ghayri Đarrā’a Muđirratin Wa Lā fitnatin muđillah
Our Lord, by Your Knowledge of the Unseen, and by Your Power over Your creation, grant me life so long as You know life to hold good for me, and grant me death when You know death to hold good for me. O Lord, I ask You to make me fear You in secret and in the open, I ask You to make me speak sincerely (the truth) at times of contentment and at times of anger, I ask You to make me be moderate (frugality) in poverty and in wealth, I ask You for a blessing that does not end, contentment that never ceases, and for acceptance of Your decree. I ask You for a good life after death, and I ask You for the joy of looking upon Your face and the longing to meet You, with no harmful adversity or misleading trial (fitnah).
[al-Nisa’i in al-Sunan, 3/55; al-Hakim, Sahih al-Jaami, 1301]
Assalamualaikum wbt. Jazakllahukhayran. I have been looking for this dua.